T-4 Days

The results of my ultrasound came back to my surgeon last week and this is what they said: We did get that imaging of the pelvic ultrasound and it looks like they see that ovarian cyst. They’re recommending on the report to follow up in 8-12 weeks. Hopefully, you have an OB/GYN that follows you. You should have them order that follow-up ultrasound so they can track that thing and if anything needs done with that because that is outside of our area. But we’ll keep moving forward with your current surgery. Call us if you have any questions.

I don’t have an OB/GYN so had to start the process of contacting my primary provider and getting that referral started. It became a bit of a rush because I can’t really do much or go anywhere after surgery. And I know me. Even though I will be sitting and not doing much, I will NOT want to call around leaving messages with doctors or argue with my insurance.

I try not to let my brain got to bad places, but it doesn’t often listen to me. The main broken record was, “Great! Now, instead of focusing on getting better, you have to worry that you have ovarian cancer!” I’ve mentioned this before, but it bears repeating: my inner voice is a f-ing jerk!

I tried to fill my weekend with activities and guests, which is not something I normally do. My youngest son’s girlfriend came over for dinner and a movie. I said I was going to make something simple, but I ended up making my very favorite dinner. Something I made up last year to celebrate moving into my new kitchen. Lots of chopping and steps and very long to make. Easy, but long. I made it because I won’t be able to cook for a while. And it’s so darn delicious!! But that caused a bit of stress because I felt like I couldn’t make it in sweatpants. And I felt like I was on a deadline, even though I really wasn’t. And my puppy was barking her head off and being a real jerk.

And the next day I had a family over for lunch that hadn’t been here in years. I made my new and improved rice chex breaded chicken recipe for that (see new recipe here). And my puppy was barking her head off and being a real jerk. Again.

I have had people ask me what they can do to help. And I just don’t know.

This is not my first (surgery) rodeo.

When my kids were little, I needed a lot of help with things. Babysitting, food, housework, errands. But that isn’t the case now. Half of my kids drive and the other half have permits. They don’t need babysitting.

All of my kids know how to cook, even though it isn’t as good as mine (just kidding!)

And even though they don’t enjoy housework, they all know how to do it.

But everyone has come together to help. I am truly blessed! Will it go smoothly, no arguing and no issues? No. But it will be enough.

It has to be enough.